100% Sure I'm Going to CA

This blog will no longer be about my life in Korea after December this year because I won't be here anymore. I never heard from the company I had the interview with, and maybe it's for the best. If they had failed to get me a visa as well, I would be crushed and would end up going back to the US with less than what I have now- which is nothing.

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70% Sure

I haven't heard from the company I interviewed with last Friday. I told the CEO I needed to know by the first of November so there's still a slim chance but he said he'd get in touch by the end of this past week. Hence the title: I'm 70% sure I'm going back to the US at the beginning of December. I will post again on or after November first.

Actually, I'm a bit relieved. The choice has, for all intents and purposes, been made. I have come up with a creative way to try to sell all my things at prices that can actually help me. I have started making a mental list of everything I have to do. Get a new tenant and notify the landlord and pay associated fees but get my security deposit back. Cancel my cell phone contract and pay the rest on my phone. Pay back my friend who used to be my landlord for back utilities and security fees. Etc.

I already have a headache.

Job Interview

I had a job interview last Friday. It was a direct result of the job fair I went to at the beginning of the month and it lasted an hour and a half. I think it went well, but I have to wait and see. The company makes patient monitors and systems for hospitals, as well as some security recognition software and systems. It's really interesting. The only problem is that it's on the other side of Seoul so if I get the job (I'll find out this week) I will have to move again.

If I don't get the job, it's probably back off to the States for me in early December. I have one last thing to do for my current company just after the end of my 90 days in Korea, so I will take another trip to the small Japanese island of Tsushima to get my passport stamped. But that's it. No more of those trips.

If I get the job, they will give me a visa. The CEO seemed very confident about that. I only wish I shared his confidence.

Psychotherapy

I have started psychotherapy and had two sessions so far. I realized that it's very similar to what I do as an English tutor. Basically, the therapist asks a couple key questions here and there to keep me talking. This requires intense concentration and critical thinking on the therapist's part, as every word could contain a hint about what to ask next and what problems there are. In English tutoring, I hang on to every word to try to look for mistakes and chances to teach grammar, vocabulary, or idioms. But I also listen closely so I can ask key questions to keep my students talking. The thing they invariably end up talking about is themselves.

Crossroads

This morning I woke up hungry and realized there was no immediately edible food in my home. So I washed some dishes, made rice in the rice cooker, beat some eggs, made egg fried rice, and sat down to watch CSI: Miami with Korea subtitles on TV. This is my life, I realized as I lay down waiting for the rice cooker to finish the rice. My stomach hurt from walking around and doing things without eating first, and I was miserable because I didn't want to have egg fried rice again. This is my life.

I know it's only temporary, but it begs the question: what do I want in life?