Friday, August 31, 2012

Korean Everydayness: Eating Out Together

I've seen one drive-thru in Korea. There are fast food restaurants, but people don't eat alone there as much as in the US. There are also kimpap chungkuk restaurants, which sell all sorts of cheap Korean food, where people sometimes eat alone. But most people eat together.

In the US, we don't think it's strange to grab a sandwich and eat alone at our desks if we're having a busy day at work. In Korea, it's almost unheard of. The whole team goes to the cafeteria or a restaurant with fast service together, eat quickly together, and go back to work together. It's just normal. Koreans eat together.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Bipolar Hypomania/Mixed State

It feels like my internal organs are trying to sever themselves from my body; my lungs and heart are trying to break out of my chest and my stomach and intestines are slowly plunging downward. How much longer can I stay in one piece? I remember to unclench my jaw. It hurts, so I shake it back and forth. Now my stomach is trying to escape by way of my throat. I swallow it back down into place and stifle a scream of frustration. I am falling apart. My world is falling apart. My eyes burn with unshed tears I've trained myself not to let free. My eyebrows rest lightly in their places where I've trained them not to scowl. On my lips is a slight smile placed perfectly so nobody suspects I'm on the verge of a breakdown.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

5 Minutes Inside My Crazy Bipolar Brain

For those of you who are bipolar, this will sound familiar. For those of you who are not, here's a look into what we deal with every day. These are a small portion of the thoughts that go through my head in 5 minutes.

I used to have no idea what was wrong with me. I was a depressed and sometimes short-fused young girl, and by college there was something dark growing inside me and threatening to rage out of control. It reached a climax earlier this year and finally drove me to seek treatment, which I have been receiving since April. It helps me, but I know that this beast will never be exterminated. All I can do is cage it.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Unemployment by Visa

Once again, because of a visa problem and despite the fact that my coworkers and my boss want me to stay, I will be unemployed at the end of the week. Visa problems come suddenly and tear lives apart. I wonder, is this just in Korea? Or is this everywhere?